How Am I?

Seriously, I think this is way too long for me not blogging here. My apologies to everyone visiting this page, especially Ling :) But no worries, I'll be blogging more often from today onwards. Great news, no more fried modems, no more account problems (unless if I forgot to pay Streamyx)

Shouldn't have come in blogging today.. now I've to go out. But before I do, I would like to tell the kid who actually copied Iris's name to write nonsense on my site. You do have a name, I believe but why waste it using other people's name? You should be ashamed of yourself. Do me a favor, make this your last time. Your family will be proud of you :)

I'll blog tomorrow.

In Shocked..

Went home early after work yesterday. Left around 7pm. The weather was quite windy I'd say. Drove off and Mom called if I'm going home for dinner, so I said yes. Felt very happy to go home for dinner because during my previous shifts, I couldn't have dinner at home. So, for the first time I felt like.. yeah I'm going home for dinner! Ehehehhe

Then I drove off back home and as usual, I went upstairs to change my clothes and went down getting ready for dinner until I found out my sister was in the toilets downstairs, vommitting. Then Dad and Mom were carrying her up to the chair. Turned out to be that she was having headache for quite some time. She didn't tell Mom about it. Both her hands were cramped and her eyes were closed. I don't think she could talk at that time. So Dad and Mom used some herb oils and rubbed softly on her wrist, to let the blood flows. I was holding her back so that she doesn't fall off the chair. Then we carried her to the sofa in the living room. Not long after that, she vommited again. But it was all water. Then her mouth cramped and she started breathing real hard. Like she couldn't breathe. I felt really shocked. I didn't know what to do but to stand and watched. Then I went and help Dad and Mom with the herb oils and rubbed her wrist softly. After a while, Mom asked me to get a doctor nearby our house. Off I went to get the doctor to our house.

The doctor checked my sister, and when he was checking her he asked questions like; "Girl, are you feeling okay? Do you hear me? How's your vision?" -- The feeling I had at that time seeing her in that kind of situation, I felt worried. I even had the sour feeling in my nose. But I watched calmly and pray it's not going to be something bad. Doctor gave her 2 injections. To relieve her headache and cramps. She fell asleep after that. I went with the doctor back to the clinic to get the rest of the medicines.

We had dinner after that. What I have to say after yesterdays' situation is never drag any sickness you have. Including small ones like headaches. Stay healthy and stay healthy.. Did I mention stay healthy? Yes, STAY HEALTHY.

Just To Fill In This Blank Space

It has been quite some time since I last blogged. This line is so familiar, I think I might have used it once blogging here. Paiseh.

I had dinner at home today. Mom cooked this Taufu with meat and it's spicy. Kind of spicy la, not too spicy I would say. Oh well, I don't even think chilly padi is hot ahahaha. Alright, then Mom played with me as in she pinches me here and there, and because of that.. I choked with a rice in my nose, and it's freaking HOT cos of the food! My goodness.. I've never felt so HOT my life! Ahahaha imagine if it was chilly padi. My god. I'd be dead of suffocations by now. *touchwood*

Went yumcha with ASTOOer's just now with LingLing. It's fun. I've not been going yumcha session for like years. It felt so, so good. I enjoyed it. I hope LingLing was enjoying it too la, cos she say she headache.. and we have not been seeing each other for like one week already. First time see after one week she say headache. Aih.. but then no more headache later after that. Oh yeah, don't know what day is today.. cos there were fireworks everywhere, and people selling flowers. I seriously have no idea.

Well, I've been told by Isis that the 24 hours shift will end tomorrow. Good news. I like that. Finally will have my nightlife back in place. Thank you 8tv ehehe

The Truth.. Hurts

It has been almost one week since the incident of losing my job at 8tv, and yesterday when Deni came in to replace Charlene's place for the first time. I couldn't help not to think about how pissed I was to lose the job to a friend.. a good friend of mine. We didn't talk much because things were really, really awkward then. He asked why I didn't reply his message asking if I still wanted the job. But the truth is, he didn't ask.. he only stated that he's asked to replace the spot. I was really stone.

Got a message from Deni this afternoon and he apologized for everything. After hearing his side of the story, I felt worse cos I don't know what else to think of. It's like when you know there are faults from everywhere and yet you cannot do anything about it cos they've apologized. I have to admit sometimes I am too soft at heart. Maybe it's because if there's any chances of recovering I will do it. The thing is we all know that, I lost a job which I needed a lot, for now. Dad has to wait for quite some time before getting his project started, and I'm like.. losing something which I can help myself, and a bit in the family with. It's all gone, just like that..

Maybe this is life.. it's just too realistic. Too hard to believe things that might happen without much of expectations.

Fair, Or Not?

I know it is not some big deal to lose something you want so much but if i don't say it out, I'm afraid I'll explode. Working life is not that exciting after all.. Things just happened without any reasons.. or is there no reason?

It has been almost one month and a half since I started working at 8tv. The first month was very memorable because I had to work 4am everyday for the first time ever in my life. Waking up in the middle of the night is just not easy. Plus driving alone on highway.. it's quite tiring.

Few weeks ago I talked to my collegue about taking over one of the moderators place because she found another job elsewhere. It was quite flexible for you only go work an hour a day, although it's from 1am to 2am. At least you get some side income for bills and savings. I don't have allowance and I feel bad to keep asking money from parents. Moreover, I'm already 22. So I thought yeah I needed this job and told him about it.

So, that's the story. Waiting for the news is hard.

Woke up this morning with 2 messages from Deni.. telling me how tired he was and the other one, to my surprise.. telling me he's replacing the moderators place. I was very disappointed. Knowing this I messaged my collegue and asked if it was true.. and his reason was that, his boss said so. What? Okay, so what makes me and Deni different? We are both interns at 8tv, both from the same course, both doing the same thing everyday.. only our schedule is different. How much difference that enables him to get the job? I asked for it first, and by right I should be able to get the place? I really couldn't think of other reasons why I don't get the job? I was very, very disappointed today. Never felt like this before.. Can I blame anyone? No, I can't. Maybe it's not my luck after all.

This is gonna bug the rest of my remaining days working at 8tv. Damn right it's gonna bug me..

The Education of Little Tree

I was at work today, and since it's a Wednesday.. 8TV calls it PopCorn Wednesday. They showed this movie called The Education of Little Tree. It's a movie about an Indian boy learning stuffs about ways of living from his grandparents. I didn't watch it from the beginning cos' I thought it's one of those boring movies around until I sat down quietly.. eating McD's watching until the end of the movie. It's simply touching, and it actually made me think about how lucky I am compared to Little Tree. Little Tree is the boys' name by the way

There's this part where people from the city came to take Little Tree away from his grandparents because they didn't put him to school. Worse still, they can't do anything about it but to watch them take Little Tree away from them. Little Tree is an Indian and so when he reached the school in the city, he's given a new name. An American name; Joshua. But Little Tree didn't like it.

There was this line, which I think is very commonly used in other movies but I still find it very meaningful. Little Tree's grandmother told him that, "no matter where he goes and if ever he needs talking to them, all he need to do is to look up the stars in the sky and they will know, for they will be looking at the same stars up in the sky."

Watching Little Tree made me realise how much my parents love me.. and how they worked so hard for me to have what I want. There are too much to say if I were to compare what I have with Little Tree because he has nothing.. and I have more than what I should have. I really feel like giving both my parents a big hug, and thank them for everything. But somehow I feel shy. Maybe because I have not been a good son to them lately for going out late at night and not helping them out with houseworks instead, I spend money like no one else did. Maybe one day I should bring them out for a good dinner, just with them :)

I love you Dad and Mom.. and my sister and brother. I love you guys and thanks for everything *hugs*

WHAT!?

Yes, I was surfing around.. again.. and I found this website! www.something.com

Guess what? There's really a 'something' there! Man, I really cannot believe it.

Go see it for yourself. You'll be surprised.

I am surprised.

Do I Have Holidays?

It's Wednesday today, to the exact 0130 and that's one hour and a half after the arrival of Wednesday.. and the end of Tuesday, which means there's like only 4 days before the new week comes in. What's with the days today.. I don't know. I guess I'm starting to shit around. Bah..

Surfed a while just now for guitar tabs and saw The Calling singing on television. Saw the chords on his hands, seems easy enough. So I went online to search for his guitar tabs on Freshtabs.com. Found it. Indeed the chords are pretty easy I'd say. I ought to try it when I wake up tomorrow. Come to think of it, I haven't been listening to English songs for like erm, 4 years? What was I doing for 4 years.. yeah Chinese songs. Oh well, at least I got my Chinese language fixed pretty well ya.. LOL

Then something came across my mind, do I have holidays working at 8tv? Do I still come to work when it's RAYA? Man, I don't know.. really. Hmm.. I should start asking ya. Cos all I know is TV stations don't deal with holidays. But that doesn't mean we (employers) don't deal with them too! Ahahaha pardon me. I'm shitting around again.

I need to get some rest. See you

Back To Myself

Today marks the first day of working back to normal time, at least half normal compared to my working time of 4am to 11am. I'm working 8pm to 4am now. Bah..

I would say the difference between working at the 4am shift and 8pm shift is, erm.. there's more work to be done at the 8pm shift, and yeah.. STRESS. Oh well, I can handle it :)

And yeah.. I have to go through some traffics on the way to work just now. Have to admit it's better driving on the 4am shift. Much cooler and relaxed :)

Gotta eat me McD's first. Laters